Blogging Outside The Box: Old Journal Entry

Mrs. T over at Mrs. T, Naturally has started her own weekly blog challenge/topic, which I decided to join!  For this first challenge you are to post a blog/journal/diary entry from the past.  I had to dig deep within one of my old xangas to find a post worth sharing!  I also have to admit that I'm cheating and showing two not just one.  I saw them both and loved them both so here they are!

"I can have a completely normal non-special day, and then all of a sudden, bam!  A song plays, a mans face flashes across a screen, a smell touches me, and it's all un-normal after that.  It takes me to that place, that time, that moment, when he was touching me, smiling at me, saying my name.  It's the look in his eyes, the touch of his hand, the strength and determination in his soul.  He's the keeper of me, he's the challenger to all I am.  I live for this man, I adore him, I am connected to him...not just now, not just tomorrow, but I always have been.  He was the piece of my puzzle I longed to find, he's everything.  Do you understand?! People, do you get it?!  I will marry this man, I will love him till I die, I will have his children, and see his face every morning.  We won't have perfection, we won't live forever happily ever after, there's going to be problems, but I relish these moments.  The ones where I feel it all and see it all, and understand what we have." ((Written November 7th, 2006--Rob and I hadn't even been together a full year yet!))

"Our relationship has come so far. This coming Thursday, will mark 2 years. It will be the first time I have actually made it that far, and still been happy. Not just happy, but completely consumed. I love him in a way I've never loved anyone. It's a love so different then any other love I have ever had. I'm so thankful he came into my life. I cannot imagine my life without him. It really shouldn't have worked, we shouldn't be celebrating 2 years. Everyone has always told us we would fail. Parents, family, friends...It's always been Robby wasn't good enough, and I had too many emotional problems. No one ever could have imagined that when we were put together, we were nothing more then explosive. He knows me, all my thoughts, dreams, hopes, inspirations, he knows how I am put together, he knows the right things to say, and the ways to touch not only my skin, but my soul. He makes my heart melt with just one look. I know people must see what I write, and the way I talk, and think we're just pretending. We ignore our problems. It couldn't be further from the truth. Our fights are brutal and ruthless sometimes. But I need his honesty. I need him to give me a reality check, and remind me I am not always right. And well, of course he isn't always right! I feel as though my entire life, I was caged in a tight cocoon. I always did what was right, what was expected, I tried to be so good, and so perfect. Robby just cut the cocoon open, and he held my wings as I learned to fly. He whispered encouragement into my ear, and I soared, and I laughed, and I opened my eyes for the very first time. Black and white to technicolor. I've never doubted our love, I've never second guessed my feelings. My heart has always known, my soul has always been his. I love him, I love him so much. Two years, in just a few, short, beautiful days. I cannot wait to celebrate this milestone, but even more, I cannot wait to celebrate 5 years, then 10, 15, and even 20. It's simply amazing."  ((Written November 12th, 2007))

In just a short two weeks Rob and I will be celebrating our 2nd wedding anniversary!  It's hard to believe it's been two years.  In November we'll be celebrating 6 years having been together!  I still love him just as much, and he still annoys me just as much too!